Weigh in Week 3

Weigh in number three

  • Starting Weight: 255 lbs
  • Current Weight: 246.5 lbs
  • Weekly weight loss: 3.3 lbs.
  • Total weight loss: 8.5 lbs

There is something I’ve learned so far with losing weight this time.

Don’t tell anyone your trying to lose weight.

Eat better, order what YOU want to eat, say no when you want and exercise when you want. People are less likely to make comments and sabotage you. I know people are very I need someone to support me but the best support is going to be yourself.

My bf knows I’m dieting and the first two weeks he kept bring me home food I didn’t ask for, snacks I didn’t want and trying to force me to eat things he was eating. I kept refusing and saying no and now his just stopped. It’s like training a puppy. :p

Friends would go out to eat and be like lets get all these appetizers. “You can I don’t want any” Oh but come on. No. If you want it you can eat it and pay for it.

You teach people how to treat you. People don’t do these things maliciously. They are just reacting and doing things out of habit. So don’t feel like all your family and friends are out to ruin you. Blaming them for your lack of willpower isn’t fair to them or you.

Weigh in Week 2

Weigh in number two

  • Starting Weight: 255 lbs
  • Current Weight: 249.8 lbs
  • Weekly weight loss: 3.8 lbs.
  • Total weight loss: 5.2 lbs

So I hit my half way point of losing 10lbs for the yearly quarter. I’m pleased. Trying to not get too over confident so I don’t slip up.

So as of yesterday we’ve have 55cm of snow with more on the way and 90 km/h winds so I can’t leave the house. It’s so annoying. I really want to go outside but it’s too cold and crappy.

Spring can not get here fast enough.

Weigh In: Week 1

Sorry for the delayed post.

On Monday I had my first weigh in.

  • Starting Weight: 255 lbs
  • Current Weight: 253.6 lbs
  • Weekly weight loss: 1.4 lbs.
  • Total weight loss: 1.4 lbs

I had a delay posting this thinking I should really post pictures with this so I have images to go back too as I go.

It was a little hard just doing it. Considering I usually have a very “fuck it” attitude.

So here are pictures

This Monday coming is weigh in #2 and I’m being hopeful. I just need to keep doing what I’m doing.

How many times has it been now

So once again I attempt at what seems impossible. Weight loss.

My weight has been an on going issue for most of my life.

Drugs and illness have contributed to weight I can not seem to get rid of.

I started using myfitnesspal again, as well as walking. So Hopefully this is something I can keep focus on. I will do weigh in once a week. So my first weigh in will be this Monday.

Starting weight is 255lbs.

If you remember from my yearly goal post I need to lose 10 lbs from Jan-Mar. I didn’t lose any in January so I have to lose 5 lbs this month and 5 lbs next month. I still this that is very doable.

I really want to try my best this time around. I want to feel better, since I am not a healthy person to start with.


Organizing DA

Since starting to be more active on DA I have notice my gallery is a complete mess. So now I am in the middle of sorting everything and planing things out.

I recently posted a new completed piece as well as a new ID for 2017.

I also have started scanning old pages from sketch books that I will post as a group doodle post.

Been sick since the 13th. Getting exhausting.

Good night. :p

My time has come…

I got the awful head cold that everyone at work has been sharing for months now. I tried so hard to avoid it and that didn’t happen.

I’m coughing up all kinds of crap and basically being gross but I have proved one thing for sure. People don’t take care of themselves.

I have an auto immune disorder and hence get sick easier and for longer.

I had bad symptoms for five days. I’m sure I’ll have a cough and aches for a while but the worst of it is over now.

There are people at my work who have had it for weeks. I won’t get into details on how they are not taking care of themselves. However I feel like. If I could get better this fast with my health, others should be even better off. Like I just don’t see the appeal in not taking care of yourself when your ill. Why do you want to be sick any longer then you have too?

Like I haven’t posted anything new to DA yet because I was too sick to finish my work. [New work posted by Saturday] I hate not being able to do anything. Not having energy to even do basic house work. Just lying in bed, blowing your nose and watching Netflix’s isn’t fun. Sorry.

Can I just express my love…

Skillshare. This website is so good and I didn’t expect to love it as much as I do.

I used one of the many promo codes going around right now for 3 months for 99 cents. Well worth it. Now after that the price is I think something like $12 a month or $96 a year.

I can say I will honestly pay the $96 a year and possibly end up watching there whole library.

If you don’t know Skillshare, it is kinda like YouTube but for things like film, crafts, art, music, food and so on. With talented and experienced people teaching you new skills with over 13,000 classes.

I have already done 12 classes myself and plan on doing more. I have already learned so much and I have been doing art for a long time.

If you happen to have a Skillshare account and wanna add me as a friend here is my profile. [link]

If you wanna maybe give the 99 cents for 3 months promo a try you can click here.

I can say easily this is one of my new favorite sites at the moment and I stop by it everyday. So if you give it a try or if you’re already a member. Add me. Learn together and all the fun jazz. 🙂

Simple Pleasures Will Gather Better Results

Simple pleasures are sure underrated now and days.

I always wanted to achieve something big, produce something amazing or have an amazing time doing something great.  However lately I learned that I won’t become productive in the long term doing this. It just makes me feel awful for not meeting an unrealistic goal.

I told myself to try focusing on small things and actually absorb the good feelings from them. See if it over all improves my mood; and it has.

I clean up more often. Which is funny because cleaning is easy when your in a good mood and a clean space makes you in a good mood.

Recently I needed some household things. I needed a new keyboard, which I have needed for ages and a small desk lamp.

These things are simple and I didn’t even get expensive ones. I got the cheapest I could find actually.

Usually I would toss these new things in there place and forget about it but I stopped to think about how great it was. Appreciate the new things I got.

The new keyboard makes working at my desk much more enjoyable and efficient and the lamp is great for my late night drawing moments when my partner is asleep so I don’t wake him.

Funny enough. My partners mind set has ALWAYS been this way. Since I first met him when we were 13. Always smiling and always grateful. Someday I will learn to be that way too.

YouTube and Deviant ART

This year I would like to focus on my DA and YouTube. My YouTube is where I’d like to do speed paints once I get the software I like for video capturing. Honestly not a fan of many of the free choices on the webs so I need to save for a software I have my eyes on.

On DA I’d like to post more often. I do a lot of work but never end up posting it. I did a lot of traditional work and didn’t have a scanner or camera.

However, now I have both so  I’m very excited to be more active.

I’ve been on DA for well over 10 years. 8 Years on my current account. I feel I should have a little more community presences. I’m not the most social person though. I have trouble talking to new people. I would like to learn to interact and not feel like I’m over thinking about it.

Deviant ART


Seems like I get to start my year with an awesome head cold.

Trying to find a good balance of resting to get better but maintaining a work level that doesn’t make me feel like I’m off track to what I want to achieve.

2017. Making real goals, realistically.

Most years I make goals in my head. However I never wrote them down. I never gave them a dedicated chance. I never took them seriously. I didn’t act as determined as I should have.

I always wished to be ambitious, energetic, vigorous. However, whenever I tried to be a better me. I always allowed a self destruct button. I always told myself it was okay to give up. There was always a reason to do so.

People would be confused because “You’re not being yourself. It’s weird.”

I have the worst luck nothing ever works out. Why even try again? I’m wasting my time.

Self destructive behavior has become something I have learned to do, and learned to do well.


So for this lovely year of 2017 I am going to attempt to give myself a fighting chance. Small goals set over a quarterly amount of time. Smaller goals should be easier to complete and hence lead to sense of satisfaction.

Then have three large goals to be completed for the end of the year but broken up into the quarters as well to make the work load easier.


  • early rough draft of goals**

Large Goals for 2017:

  • Lose 40 lbs. Current weight is 255lbs
  • Write and illustrate children’s book
  • Learn basic conversational Japanese


  • Lose 10 lbs.
  • Fully organize work space
  • Start a savings
  • Brain storm plot and characters for book
  • Complete three pieces of art work


  • Lose 10 lbs.
  • Apply for local craft fairs
  • Go for a walk every day the weather is good
  • Character design for book/early writing stage


  • Lose 10 lbs.
  • Take road trip to Northern Bay Sands with friends
  • Start Xmas shopping and have it completed by the fall


  • Lose 10 lbs.

Here’s to a fighting chance.